Continuing the blog challenge : I discovered that , yes, my resistance is still present. My inner critic’s very healthy voice yammering about content and quality of thinking. In the Dreamtime, I had an odd experience of seeing red square spiders speckled with black dots…they were everywhere in a golden hued log cabin…is there some meaning in them ? I have never seen a square spider, hmmmm.
Now, I could take myself to my watercolors and sketch one out…but will I ? What creative act is bubbling up for you today ? Maybe a sketch ? Maybe a sentence in your journal as you write a fresh article for you or others ? What descriptive images and phrases are dancing in your mind ?
As a child I was introduced to Art thru my mother’s love of art. My brother was adept at painting lovely still lifes , my grandmother’s watercolors were delicately crafted landscapes. Mine…wow….line drawings…only…abstract and indecipherable. My mother’s youthful story wove her history with an Artist, I met him when I was 17, his work was stunning, how I longed to paint…but as I was told, like so many at the time, ” You will starve if you pursue this path”. In my heart I knew I was an Artist yet I didn’t have a clear path for that discovery to learn the meaning of this inner knowing. I had taken college courses only to become even more discouraged as clearly I didn’t have the “it” factor & also it was expressed to me that art school would only teach me many things that would then need to unlearn. Little did I know that I was a late bloomer !
Therefore, I learned the business of art; selling, hanging shows, marketing, archiving, record keeping, gallery management etc. , eventually I found myself in the accounting end of business (bread and butter ). Corporate bookkeeping and cashflow management became my economic earning strength. I adore working with spreadsheets and with the computerization of same, all of that has something to do with a love of solving puzzles. In my free time I delved into the ” Lands of Inquiry & Transformation” ….(another subject) !
Recently it occurred to me that I was separating my Left Brain accounting skills from my Right Brain creative skills. I also don’t speak or share very much about my obsession with Cash Flow Management, Balance Sheets and Profit & Loss reports. Well, now I am weaving the two with great intention for creating a balance within myself. What that weave will look like in the end, I don’t really know…
Here is an Inquiry for you….what paradoxically seen/unseen imbalance (s) are you experiencing ?